okay, i just had my lunch then i went to the loo twice cos it's really cold in here.
hahahs, then i kinda fell asleep then my boyfriend called me.
then now he says he wants to go to sleep.
so i'll continue my story okay.
where did i stop? oh yes school.
my olevels were a mess.
it's true yes that having a boyfriend is the biggest distraction, especially of you're a girl!
i skipped school on the most important weeks just to spend the day with my boyfriend.
either swimming, watching movies or just going out to have a breath of fresh air.
so yes it was horrible.
when i got my results, i didn't know where to go.
i passed all my subjects tho .
just not good enough to get myself anywhere.
i was given a spot in ITE Simei but hell no .
one, there's quite a few people that i do not wanna know that are there.
two, my boyfriend and two other ex-boyfriends are there.
three, i will get influenced like hell all over again .
so my parents told me to check out private schools and things like that.
and so i did. i found Stansfield College which offers a diploma in law.
i called up and they toold me that minimum requirement is that i was to be of the age of 18.
crestfallen enough, i went back to the school to have a free course consultation.
i was really interested as the path leads me to the University Of London.
as intriguing as it sounds, i can't wait to get out of singapore and study abroad!
so instead of doing the diploma in a year, i have to do it in two years just to fit my age.
i am happy though, because doing it twice, gives me a chance to get good grades.
so i'm not complaining, the thing is, my parents had to actually pay for the fees which are really expensive.
a single year costs about $13,000. and two years means double the cost. and that is not the 500pounds registration fees and 800pounds examination fees to be paid to the University Of London.
these fees do not include the textbooks and other neccesities i have for when school opens.
i am happy though. really really happy. my ultimate goal is to get to Kings College, UK.
that would be a dream come true for me.
i am starting school as of next month, i can't wait!
hahahs !
okay, now, it's the father.
when i started working here, which is at the central business district, i had to wonder around to find food.
do day by day as i keep wondering, i keep finding new places.
so one day, when my friends were busy and i went down alone for lunch, i walked all the way to republic plaza or something like that.
i remembered that my father used to work there.
i texted him asking wether he still is working there.
knowing deep down , that being a job hopper of course he doesn't work there anymore.
but he actually replied my text.
and he told me that he was working at marina sail.
which is actually a residential building. cool huh. maybe that's where zee's sister stays.
anyway, i asked him out for lunch one day.
and we went to the soupspoon . with my sister.
had fun , catched up and laughed alot.
hahahs . miss my dad yes, but i can never say that to his face because he never does misses me.
i got tired of being mad at him.
so i just let things be. maybe for now. i don't know.
Muhammad Syakir Bin Jasni has been an awesome boyfriend.
although in January, he cheated on me. he has been cheating on me for awhile actually.
it hurt so bad that for the first time i cried till i can't breathe.
it hurts. like hell i tell you. alot. but what can i say. he's a player. he will always be that. one day, when we get married, trust me, i'll have the same problems.
he's just like my dad. womanizers. i hate them.
but for now, i love him.
i forgave him. i couldn't really trust him, no, but i learnt to.
he still does lie. i told him to stop going clubbing cos i hate it when he does that.
but i know themor ei stop him the more he's going to lie but if Rash can keep his promise to his girlfriend why not my own boyfriend.
and there's things with a certain idiot named Hazmi.
gosh i do not even wanna talk about it.
it came to a point where i was called a slut.
and best, it was him who said it. his slut. but the word itself does so much damage on me.
i couldn't bear to hear it again and again and again.
ohh whatever. all i know is i love my boyfriend and i hope that things between us can really last.
we're gonna have our 1st anniversary in 5 days.
i'm so happy for us.
in turn actually i wanted to say, I LOVE HIM. to bits, sometimes i don't know why. but i just do.
well this is all for now. i shall update more and soon.
ps, this is actually a private blog. no one knows of this but me.
if you are reading this, tell yourself, that you're wonderful.
everyone deserves that.
